As a trauma and relationship therapist, I've seen firsthand how our childhood experiences intricately shape our adult experiences.

Odds are, if you’re reading this,  you've got an "inner wounded child" that's holding onto pain from the past and causing you to react in relationships in ways that sometimes go sideways.

Understanding Childhood Trauma

It's not just the big, dramatic events like abuse or neglect, though those certainly qualify. Trauma can manifest in various forms, from witnessing violence or experiencing loss to enduring emotional neglect or even growing up in a chaotic environment. 

Your childhood trauma may not even have to do with anything your parents did or didn’t do. For example, your childhood trauma could’ve been brought on by peers such as getting bullied in school or growing up as the only person of your race, skin color, religion, gender, or other identifiers can make you feel “othered” in a way that fosters a deep sense of loneliness and even shame.

These experiences shape our beliefs about ourselves, others, and the world around us, which in turn can lead us to not show up as our best selves in relationships.

The Impact of Childhood Trauma on Relationships

1. Attachment Styles: Our attachment styles are formed in infancy based on how our caregivers responded to our needs. Those who experienced inconsistent care may develop anxious or avoidant attachment styles, impacting their ability to trust and connect deeply with others in adulthood.

2. Communication Patterns: Childhood trauma can distort our communication patterns, making it challenging to express needs, emotions, and boundaries effectively. We may struggle with assertiveness, fearing rejection or conflict, or resort to passive-aggressive behaviors as a means of self-protection.

3. Trust Issues: Betrayal or abandonment in childhood can lead to skepticism and hypervigilance, making it difficult to trust others' intentions or feel secure in intimate connections. This may look like second-guessing your partner.

4. Self-Esteem and Worthiness: Trauma often creates emotional patterns of shame and self-doubt, like sneaky negative thoughts about being unworthy of love and belonging. This can lead to seeking validation externally, settling for less than we deserve, or pushing away those who genuinely care for us, fearing they'll discover our perceived flaws.

5. Repetition of Patterns: Unhealed childhood wounds have a way of resurfacing in our adult relationships, sometimes leading to unconsciously recreating familiar dynamics or seeking out partners who resemble the roles of primary caregivers from childhood. Breaking free from these patterns requires awareness and intentional healing work. But it IS possible. 

How To Heal Childhood Trauma To Better Your Relationships

As a trauma and relationship therapist, I've witnessed remarkable transformations in clients who are committed to doing the inner work.

Here are some steps you can take:

1. Therapy and Support: Seeking therapy with a qualified trauma-informed therapist can provide a safe space to explore past wounds, develop coping strategies, and learn healthier relationship skills. If you’d like to learn more about my services click here.

2. Self-Compassion: Be gentle with yourself as you navigate this journey. Healing takes time, and setbacks are a natural part of the process. Practice self-compassion and cultivate a supportive inner dialogue with your inner child, being the parent you may never have had. 

3. Mindfulness and Self-Reflection: Mindfulness practices can help you become more attuned to your thoughts, emotions, and relational patterns. Self-reflection allows you to examine how past experiences may be influencing your present interactions.

4. Setting Boundaries: Learning to set and maintain boundaries is crucial for creating healthy relationships. Identify your needs and communicate them assertively, knowing that it's okay to prioritize your well-being.

5. Seek Resources: Therapy is not accessible for all for many reasons but it doesn’t mean you can’t seek and get support and guidance from a professional. I have created and designed my own course for those wanting to heal from their trauma to better their relationships, you can join the waitlist here. 

Healing your childhood trauma can start with simply reflecting on what you experienced, how that led to what you believe about yourself and how you interact in relationships. 

From there, you can heal your inner self by being the ideal parent you needed all along.

Remember, healing is possible.

For those who feel big emotions when exploring their past, this can be a sign that there’s some deep-rooted trauma that may be blocking your ability to heal and better your relationships.

Reach out today for a free consultation for therapy - we’ll see if we’re a good fit for what you’re needing to unlock the impact of trauma and transform your relationship with yourself!